sleep no more! macbeth does murder sleep
2004-11-06 - 7:44 pm
I've said it before, but I believe it is time for me to say it again. I love to dance.
The swing club had a party last night, with a live jazz band and a dance contest and it was wonderful. The turnout was perfect; any more and there wouldn't have been enough room for people to dance. I danced with my friends, I danced with strangers, I taught people how to dance...it was beautiful.
I listen to music, and I do more than just hear it. I feel it. I have to move. My whole body wants to listen to the music. That's what dancing is for me. I absolutely love it.
However, I am having problems in other ways. It's time for me to get really serious about getting my sleeping patterns back to something normal. Today I woke up around 12, went to lunch, came back to my room and talked online to braveheart for awhile, he called me, and then about 45 minutes into the phone call I was too tired to sit and talk on the phone. And then I slept until about half an hour ago. I had things I wanted to do this afternoon. I wanted to go outside and read because the weather was warm and sunny and beautiful; I wanted to go to the poetry slam tonight. I had homework that needs to be done. But I slept too long. This must stop.
Several people have told me they think I should see a doctor, but I know what the problem is. I have trouble falling asleep, I always have. The only thing that helps me is having a regular sleeping schedule and sticking to it, and I'm not doing that at all. I have to fix this myself and it's going to need to some serious changes in my habits on my part. So my goal is to be in bed by 1 am every night, possibly including weekends, because I don't think I can just switch the routine on and off. If I get off over the weekend, it will affect me the entire week.
If I genuinely try, and succeed, and I regularly get close to 7 or 8 hours of sleep every night, and I'm still so tired that sleeping all the time interferes with my life, I will try seeing a doctor. I've been reading a little about chronic fatigue syndrome, and I don't think I have that, because I don't have any symptoms other than fatigue, but I don't know. Certainly sometimes I have trouble concentrating, and I tend to get ear pain, which is something that sufferers of CFS complain about. But, again, I need to try and fix this myself before I running to a doctor about it.
Right now I'm going to fix myself some microwave pasta to make up for the meal I slept through.